Today was the Root Beer Pong event (along with a volleyball game), in the courtyard of Coronodo Hall. It was hosted during dinner time and no, I didn't go. Instead, I went to safeway to rent a movie (Sunshine Cleaning, starring Amy Adams and Emily Blunt) for one dollar, had dinner at the cafeteria (two slices of pizza), and walked straight to my room--passing the event in the courtyard.

You may consider me sad, boring, and depressing. I probably am; I'm just in denial. And when I am not in denial, It's bad....really bad.

I did, however, enjoy the movie. I got irritated during the film because my laptop was acting like it was having a seizure. I can't even watch a movie without it having to glitch every second (looking like the movie was going in slow motion)!

Anyway--to you college students or future college students: go out and have fun. Take a break from homework and go have fun with your friends, and make new friends. It really is a pitiful impression when you don't socialize in a crowd and when you sit alone, almost every meal time, at the cafeteria. Be daring! Be bold! I should take my own advice, but I don't. It's ironic, yes.

I am sociable when I hang out with friends and get comfortable with new friends. I do have things to say and express. It's just that I often keep to myself unless it it necessary to be sociable. I am awkward and freaky, often. When I have conversations with new people, it's hard for me to keep a stable conversation because I don't know what to say or have nothing to say (and I get nervous); it's often short and careless. Not only that, I have hearing loss--that makes it harder for me to keep a normal conversation when I have no idea what anyone is saying or said (and when I ask them to repeat themselves too much).

It's hard to hear my roommate. His voice is soft and low. So, when he says something and I don't understand what he said, I often ask him to repeat himself or I just nod and seem like I know what he saying. It gets awkward like that.

I have an interview with that lady, for the starbucks job, on Tuesday at 3PM. Wish me luck! I did talk to her on the phone this afternoon and she was complicated. It's hard having a "professional" conversation over the phone. She and I were concerned with the flexibility of my schedule. I have to make sure that I have time to do school work and study, and she has to make sure that I am available to work whenever I am needed. We just need to compromise. I have a feeling that she's stern...That kind of scares me. But no matter, I can do it. I hope that I can do it and that my schedule will work with everything.

Working at starbucks will be my first time serving to the public, in a public place, ever! All my other jobs were in a military base...so those don't really count.

I took a math quiz today. My teacher (Mrs. Furukawa) lectured about the inner locus of whatever...she was wasting our time with this whole "philosophical" and "spiritual" bullshit that has no relevance to math. Sure she has a reason to help us...but this is something that gurus, counselors, or therapists tell people who need the information. Even so, if the teacher wants to lecture it--she can do it outside of class. She even made us make a list of things we can and can't control...and ripped the half that we listed as what we have no control over, and crumbled and tossed it in the trash. Enough already! Just teach math! She's like this bouncy guru who flails her arms as she talks and makes jokes that people are supposed to laugh at, but instead we stare at her with whatever people are feeling (I stare at her with wonder, confusion, and interest). **I read that last sentence and she sounds JUST like me! When I am serious I get boring, I guess. I just don't want my time wasted; I want to learn math and get it over with. I want knowledge, not therapy.

We talked about Shirley Jackson's The Lottery, in Major Themes in Literature (9:30 class). It's an interesting and boring story. Whatever. But the story reminded me that evil is a natural aspect, a natural instinct in humans. We many not like it or agree with it-- but it's natural, just abnormal.

In relation to death: taking your own life is like taking the life of someone you love.

Until then,

~ Michael

Michael

lol np!

So, what are you doing now?

10:40pmChris

well i just got back from the gym..so i took a shower and im tryin to cool down

10:40pmMichael

I need to work out!

i am tired of being thin

and everyone is fit

it's embarassing

10:40pmChris

nah dude im way skinny

10:41pmMichael

No you're not! You're like buff and muscle-y

You're not skinny compared to me

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*deep sigh* I am so depressing....I prolly do need therapy